Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Leah Taylor

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Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend, somewhere along the bitterness and, I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known, how to save a life. -The Fray

I'm just really missing my bestie today.


Memories:

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Thursday, August 9, 2012

Short and Sweet

I want a mystery, I want salvation...
In this secular age, after the death of God, we look for salvation in love...
The one
Our own personal Jesus


So basically, I'm looking for a man...who has a high threshold for pain...

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Medical Marijuana Segment

Me and My Diabetes



If you know me you probably know I'm a diabetic. I walk around with my insulin pump on at all times and I try to eat a healthy diet to make sure that I keep my diabetes under control. I want to be healthy so that I can 1.have children, 2.keep my limbs and 3.live a "semi-normal" life as a young diabetic. All of those things are possible with tight control of your blood sugars. I have issues that I try to work on such as high and low blood sugarsmostly low recently, and the fact that I like a drink every once in a while. But I would like to say that I am really taking control of my health and conquering this mess called DIABETES...If you are a diabetic and need help from a VET in the game, just hit me up, I would love to help you in WHATEVER way that I can, and meet new people that are dealing with this struggle like me. I think that support is a key factor in staying healthy.

Now, I must say, being young and dealing with this disease is no walk in the park. As we travel from adolescence to young adulthood, we tend to become defiant in many ways...trying to find our independence. With me, that meant drugs, heavy liquor, and running the streets day in and day out...all the while, in between what I thought was fun and "the life", I was not taking my insulin, in and out of ICUs, and suffered 2 miscarriages...I was VERY unconcerned with how sick I was! I continued to live that lifestyle, all the while, my kidneys were beginning to fail, I was suffering from early stages of neuropathy, my eyesight was even getting worse! I had to make a change!

So I did! I hooked my insulin pump to my hip and we have been Partners In Crime for a while now. The only time my pump gives me privacy these days is when I'm in the shower. She's not very sexy, but she is pink so she's stylish. I really don't know if my health would be this managed without my pump. I really suggest one for all insulin dependent diabetics struggling with their blood glucose numbers. It's truly an amazing creation! I want to be a living testimony for all young people living with this disease. I know that diabetes can get downright depressing. I often think, WHY ME?! But then I remember that feeling sorry for myself is not going to change my situation. Me changing my situation will change my situation! Get up, take your medicine, exercise, eat right, monitor and manage your blood glucose. Trust me, you will be fine!

ME AND MY INSULIN PUMP
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Tuesday, August 7, 2012

THE REVOLUTION WILL BE TELEVISED!

Beautiful...here we go again, my love, you know, I will never let you go, my love...Beautiful...HERE WE GOOO!!
-"Beautiful" Damien Marley


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"THE REVOLUTION WILL BE TELEVISED!



For some reason, I am so into guys with long hair. Every guy I've ever dated can grow long beautiful hair lol. But the reason why those relationships were basically bogus, is because those guys lack substance. They were beautiful idiots...Right now my new infatuation is with ♥Damien Marley♥, son of the musical prodigy Bob Marley, and a genius in his own right. Now he's what I want, he is handsome and seems intellectual (although I've never met him, he may be a total loser in real life), and the shallow part of me loves the fact that he has long beautiful locks! LISTEN UP, if you fit these characteristics (handsome, intellectual, long hair), give me a holler. I am looking for someone to spend my life with on a deeper level than sexual, although very important, something intense, highbrow, creative and DELIGHTFULLY challenging! Instead of just trying to score...try to fuck my mind as well.



...I need to leave the bud alone haha

I Apologize...

I have to retract statements that I made earlier in July about a friend. I was wrong for the really mean and nasty things I said about you and I hope that you forgive me. Like you said, I have a lot of making up to do.

Oh shit...I can't wait. ;)

Being wrong this time has taught me a few different things...

1) Never judge anyone, God is the only true judge for any of us.
2) Everything is not what it seems, know the facts before you even state your opinion.
3) Don't speak hastily...you may end up regretting and having to apologize for what you say...think TWICE, speak ONCE

That is all.

Friday, August 3, 2012

HOLA!!

HELLO EVERYONE, HOW ARE YOU?
I wanted to post yesterday, but I couldn't concentrate hard enough to, and I didn't want to write anything silly, or something that didn't make much sense. But I have definitely found something to talk about...

I have been fascinated by these crazy, hell-bound, fire and brimstone Christians from Topeka, Kansas. They belong to a cult church named the Westboro Baptist Church. To be honest, the members of this church seem to me like the most ridiculous, self-righteous group of followers in the universe! My thing is, what they're saying is so offensive..."All fags go to hell"??? They are protesting outside of dead soldiers funerals saying thank God for dead soldiers...I mean ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS?! Who do these “Bible” throwing rejects think they are to judge me. These people are a joke.

I think that their beliefs come from their own distorted version of the Old Testament. They believe that God hates everyone who has ever sinned. If you have EVER sinned, you’re going to hell. PERIOD. Do their Bibles not come with the New Testamentahhhh??? I'm guessing no...

I would like to say that regular Christians...real Christians, should have no problem living through the word of our God. Compared to these "Christians", my Christianity seems like a piece of cake. There would be NO WAY that I could live by the rules of their "God". Speaking of that...I wonder if we even worship the same god. They say they believe in the Bible, but I think that they are misinformed...or lack the ability to read to comprehend. They are vulgar and disgusting. I am a Christian, I believe in the Lord our God. I believe and try to my hardest to live by His teachings and live up to the standards that He expects of me. I believe that God hates the sin, but ultimately, loves the sinner. I do not believe the teachings of this cult church. What's worse is...there are so many children being brainwashed taught this mess.

Lord, please help these people, please save their innocent children. Open their eyes and give them clarity of Your word so that if they choose to still preach, they know and understand what they are preaching. Please stop them from misleading people in the world that they are able to convince. People lost looking for You in low places. And think that they have found you in one of the grimiest places on Earth. God please help these extremist. Deliver them from the darkness. And bring them light. Amen.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Happy August 1st!!!

"In my quest to create perfection out of imperfection...I will make mistakes. But if I learn from said mistakes...were they ever really mistakes at all, or tough life lessons required to grow???"
-Mithi Berry 08/01/2012†

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

07/31/2012

Hello All,

How is everyone doing??? I am fine, I haven't posted in a few days because I haven't been at the computer. I've been playing hookie sick at home, and yesterday I was admitted into the hospital! At least I caught up on some rest. Vegas seriously WORE ME OUT!! I know I wrote some crazy things previously about a person I met out in Vegas, but I took that down because I was wrong for what I said, and I was wrong for thinking those things and posting them on the internet. Please forgive me.


Moving Forward...

I want to comment on the chick from Twilight™, cheating on her boyfriend...congratulations honey...you finally got some spunk about yourself! She is usually so BORING, does anyone hear publicity stunt, stunt, stunt echoing somewhere in the shadows??? Well personally, I feel like this is all apart of human nature. First of all, men will be men regardless, ladies, know that. Don't ever forget it. Secondly, the poor girl is 22 years old, WHAT 22 YEAR OLD DOESN'T CHEAT?! Get it together America. The way I see it, she and that pasty vampire guy she's dating are just that DATING. And have no children. She can do what she wants. Everyone did it at 22. Although I must admit, I was a lot more sneaky way back in the game. LOLz!

Kristen Stewart, just a few words of advice...you gonna be a homewrecking hoe scandulous figure in Hollywood...NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR SHIT! LOL I'm just sayin.

Over and Out.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

hopeless PLACE.

It's like you're screaming, and no one can hear
You almost feel ashamed
That someone could be that important
That without them, you feel like nothing
No one will ever understand how much it hurts
You feel hopeless; like nothing can save you
And when it's over, and it's gone
You almost wish that you could have all the bad stuff back
So that you can have the good.

btw.
I can't cry today...I left my shades at home.
So please don't make me.

What Happens In Vegas, Stays In Vegas…But Sometimes, it Goes Home to San Diego…

I never post on here, but I vow to start again. I have a lot to say and I really need to get some things off of my chest. I need to work through my issues through my creative self, my writing. So I will write my ass off.

So here's where I begin today...I just returned home from my 1st trip to Las Vegas EVER!!! What a great time! As I sat in my 2 bedroom penthouse suite at the Bellagio, I thought to myself...THIS IS THE LIFE! I had a ball. I danced all night long, explored the strip all day, and met new people...which lead me to the most important part of this post.

I met the most BEAUTIFUL man in the world while I was there. He had caramel skin, long black hair, penetrating light brown eyes, similar to mine, and strong Indian features. For privacy sake, I'll call him, "Lamar". It all started when "Lamar" walked up to my sisters and me, displaying his ever so erotic tongue ring. Instantly attracted, I started up some smooth banter. Our conversation lasted for hours...until daylight. He told me everything I wanted to hear from him, we were so compatible...and he was so GORGEOUS, hovering is 6ft body over me, licking his lips and kissing my cheek. I felt an instant, extreme connection. It was the sweetest taboo.



This is him
Check out that HAIR!!!
I blurred his face out for privacy...
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So I bid adieu to "Lamar", and it hasn't been the same since. I really don't understand, because it wasn't like he was just trying to sleep with me...I mean we talked all night. Not even mentioning sex. I mean, we mentioned it...but not the act of us indulging in it together...I'm lost. So ever since, I met him, I can’t stop listening to stupid, sappy love songs and wondering what he’s doing in San Diego…
I'm starting to wonder...is 'love at first sight' real???